Thursday, December 29, 2005


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Noah's 7th Birthday

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My birthday wishes for you are many yet simple.

I wish you will always find your way in the world with confidence and security in the knowledge of who you are and what you can offer to this world and others.

I wish for your safety and protection so you can live a full, prosperous life.

I wish for peace in your busy mind and understanding so you can handle living in my world.

I wish for you to continue to love the Lord pure in heart and soul like you do now.

I wish for you the ability to avoid a lot of the crap most kids when teenagers have to go through to learn. My hope is you can learn by avoiding those challenges.

I wish for you to be able to feel fulfilled in your life at whatever you choose to do.

I wish for you to know you can do anything you set your mind to and to believe in yourself no matter what anyone else says.

I wish for you to continue to feel optimistic and hopeful, even when experiencing or seeing the horrors of the world today.

I wish for you to find a special love one day if that is what you desire so you won't be alone or lonely in this world but have someone special to share things with, to love and love you back and have a family.

I wish for you a new found ability to eat more variety of foods without gagging or crying.

I wish for you to realize there are always consequences to your actions and to think about those consequences before taking action. This lesson will save you a lifetime of regret.

I wish for you to tackle life with the gusto and fervor you already do. To enjoy life and living even through sorrows. I wish for you to suffer few sorrows.

I wish for you to continue to be such a loving, compassionate little boy, who will one day turn into a loving, compassionate man. One who will know how to treat a lady as a lady should be treated...and one who can support himself.

I wish for you to stay as a child in your heart and see through a child's eyes so you can keep the wonder of the world within you.

I wish for you to have independence one day.

I wish for you to have no regrets in your lifetime.

I wish you will someday know just how much I love you.

Happy 7th birthday my little man!

I love you so.

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Mommy

Happy Birthday Noah!!
















Today it is your 7th birthday. You have decided to get a Monster Truck decorated birthday cake (which you will probably only eat some of the icing of) and then you want to go to Perkins for lunch (to have pancakes). Daddy I think is getting you a Gameboy as he thought that would also be something to take along during our drive to Ohio.

Anyway...seems like only yesterday you were being born. I love you so and am very proud of all the progress you have made so far in your life.

Mommy
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Wednesday, December 28, 2005

To Noah from a special friend

Achieving Dreams


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A dream is a seed
The seed of a tree
A tree full of life
And the things you can be
Your dreams are the windows
Through which you can see
A hint of your future
And the things you will be
Each night when you sleep
You're feeding the seed
The seed of the tree Of who you will be....

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

Dear Noah:

Well Christmas has come and gone. So hard to believe another year will be starting soon. Our lives are changing every day. You are so much calmer without Daddy here 24/7. An amazing difference. We have had some wonderfully intimate and giggly moments in time. I have loved and treasured them all. You are such a kind and generous caring person....bringing me snacks or water to drink..all without prompting or being asked to do so. We have played with your new Wedgits many times over....and have a blast each time. We have run errands and taken drives in the truck...much to your delight! We have quiet times here at home curled up in bed reading. You are finally starting to sleep by yourself....even if it is in my bed......when I am not in it!

The transformation is apparent to me...as I am sure it would be to anyone else around you.

You make mommy very proud of you Noah and I love you so.

Mommy

Thursday, December 22, 2005

Your M&M guys!

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For you Noah...your favorites!

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Dear Noah:

Well we saw your daddy yesterday and again today....he stopped by after we talked so he could surprise you for a visit. You were so shocked to see him and immediately ran to him and plastered hugs and kisses all over him. At least the visit seemed to make you content and you were okay with him leaving. I am trying to establish a new routine for you....one where your home environment does not always include your daddy living in it 24/7. So far it seems to be going well...as long as you have visits or phone calls to him.

We took you to Occupational Therapy on Wed as usual. Afterwards we walked over to the adjoining park to let you play for a bit. A couple of really rough boys came up and slammed into some playground equipment you were playing with. Old enough to know better but they did it anyway. I did not think you would have a positive reaction to that. YOU started screaming but not as loudly as in the past and you took off running to a different area of the park. SO that went better than in the past where who knows what you may have done including possibly throwing something at them or somewhere else or even perhaps trying to push them? They were bigger than you so I doubt you would have pushed them. BUT ........I was impressed with how you handled it and quickly recovered. SO you are learning. ONCE THEIR mother called them back over to settle down and leave you alone...you came back and continued playing till it was time to go. Many times you want kids to play with you and be around...and many many times you don't and would rather just be left alone to play somewhere.

Looks like it might rain today. Wanted to get the truck washed...maybe we will wait.

Still does not feel much like Christmas to mommy. Hope I can at least make it feel like it for you.

I love you my little man.

Mommy

Monday, December 19, 2005

Dear Noah:

well...life is a bit in an upheaval lately for you and I am sorry for that. Problems between your mommy and daddy do not help. Having your daddy say bad things about your mommy also does not help. Wishing for a quick...easy solution is natural. Finding one however is another story altogether. If there is anything I need to teach you in your life, autism or not...it is about the importance of making choices. The choices you will make in your life all have consequences. Some will be good, some will be bad and some will only have to be cast aside as "learning experiences".

I guess that is where I am with your daddy now. I know from the start I made a wrong choice...however....if I had not made that choice I would not have you my precious little boy. For that I will always be grateful and moved and touched forever. I am so thankful for you.

However, I have continued to allow myself to be deceived by your father for 8 1/2 years. I cannot do it any longer. I am sorry only about this in regards to you and how it may affect your life and spirit. BUT I also know it is time to move forward, no matter how painful it might be.

While we have had many problems, you have NEVER been a problem for daddy and I. You never will be. None of this is your fault. It is my fault as I made poor choices...and your daddy's fault for making the choices he did, which in essence was to lie about his entire life and motives.

SO....without going into so much more than you or the world needs to know........just wanted you to know that there will be many changes coming up in your life. I am trying to make them all positive/good changes. I know it can be a better life for you. However, I also know just getting to that other side of BETTER is a long painful rocky road.

You should learn from us and always think about your choices in life. Think what the consequence might be for a choice you make in your life before you make that choice. Once put into motion you cannot go back in time to erase it or change things. Think about what you may lose by making a choice. Think about what you might gain. Think about what you may have to give up or gain. Think about whether it goes against all you believe in or supports it. Think about whether your spirit and soul are truly happy or feel like they are dying or already dead.

IF you can do this...you will save yourself much heartache and unnecessary trials and tribulations.

I love you so much Noah......to the moon and back again...forever and ever and ever and ever

Mommy

Monday, December 12, 2005

Dear Noah:

WELL..after TWO Days of NO FOOD and little to drink the TOOTH FINALLY CAME OUT THIS MORNING...your promptly sent your daddy to Burger King to get you some hashbrowns and are already making plans for lunch out tomorrow! So sweet you are and I LOVE YOU!

Mommy

Saturday, December 10, 2005

Dear Noah:

Well today you are working on losing tooth #2....the bottom front tooth. Your first tooth loss was only a few weeks back and you handled that very well. In fact you went in and pulled it out yourself and all our fears about how you could or could not handle losing a tooth faded.

TILL today. The second bottom front tooth is loose and almost out...hanging by a thread. BUT this time round you are extremely upset by it all and WILL NOT just pull it out.....you have gone all day and the tooth is sideways in your mouth now apparently only attached by a thread.

You have not been able to eat....hardly drink....and really don't want anyone even trying to help you pull it out. SO it has been tough.. Crying...lots of that.....HAND FLAPPING which I have not seen you do in a long long time. An extremely upsetting day for you.

I am hopeful the tooth will come out tonight yet as you HAVE to be hungry.

I LOVE YOU MY LITTLE MAN! even when you today told me if I pushed on your tooth too hard to try to get it out you would "run away". FIRST TIME you have ever said anything like that to mommy.........

You also brought out a bookmark that says "I LOVE JESUS" and handed it to me and told me that it was for me as "you have been mean and bad lately". You apparently think I yelled at Daddy last Thursday and am making him cry (yes we are having problems)...but I only raised my voice and in fact this time did not yell but was trying to protect an episode between you and Daddy. Somehow I am now the bad guy and have been reminded everyday to BE NICE and BE GOOD or Santa would not bring me any GOOD presents...and then the bookmark today.

SO what can I say? I love you regardless...and I suppose over time there is bound to be one of many days where you will think I am a mean mommy and maybe even want to run away....though I never thought there would be and it makes me sad to think you feel that way even if you don't completely understand it...at 6 1/2 years old.

LOVE YOU!

Mommy

Thursday, December 08, 2005

Dear Noah

Today.....December 8, 2005. Such a trying day. Daddy and mommy are having some issues and you are definitely picking up on them. You told me today that we all needed to be nice to each other or Santa would not bring us any "good" present and we needed to hurry up and do this before Christmas Eve!

Course Daddy set you off today twice. Once it was so severe you actually "attacked" daddy. Not sure what happened but I could hear it and then Daddy came out and told me you came after him. So.....I have to continually ask myself...is this GOOD for you. While you love your daddy endlessly and I have never had any desire to take you away from him or split a family up under any circumstances......I have to also think about what is best for you and to be honest...I sometimes wonder if this is the best. The way I see it there should be no reason why Daddy cannot understand how to get along around you and not set you off just like I can. I don't understand why he can't seem to do that regardless of my endless reminders. Mommy gets tired of living like this and constantly reminding Daddy of what to or not to do...what to say or what not to say to you...how to look or not to look at you or how to just give you some space.

So....we have issues. I guess everyone does from time to time. Nothing is perfect....and time will tell how all this will work out or not. I have always made a vow however to never drag a child through divorce........but like I said...I have to also wonder how positive you being around Daddy if he sets you off is for you in the long run. I can see a time come when you perhaps wouldn't want to be around him at all....or worse....lose total control and really hurt someone or him and then what. Where do you end up? Where does that leave you? Seems all the good work I do and the progress we make can be set back in seconds when these episodes occur.

Regardless I love you. AND I will make sure everything will be fine for you so don't worry my little man!

Mommy

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

Dear Noah-OUR Christmas Tree 2005

So Noah we finally got our Christmas tree up and decorated. It actually took almost 2 days to complete...but you love it and so do we! It is an old-fashioned type tree with lots of toy-type ornaments on it and some tinsel....looks like an old-fashioned tree you might even see in a store window. Anyway...we had fun though you lost patience after hanging only a few ornaments. Right now you are watching some Christmas specials on television.

I LOVE YOU!

Mommy
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Thursday, December 01, 2005

Dear Noah

Well we have still NOT decorated for Christmas. Hopefully tomorrow and/or this weekend we will get it all done. Kind of late getting a lot of things accomplished it seems this year.

You did want to make gingerbread cookies...so we did that tonight. We had fun but you seemed to tire out easily. I think not enough sleep lately.

You SO need a bath...but late for that too. TOMORROW for sure my little man!

I will love you forever

Mommy

Dear Noah

So today is December 1 already. That means only 24 days till Christmas. I am SO not ready yet and in fact today we will TRY to at least get our tree up and outside lights hung!

Yesterday went well in occupational therapy. You made a new friend. Another little boy there who I believe has cerebral palsy as he could not hold himelf up without support or his arms or hands or his upper body or head. BUT they introduced you to him. His name was GABE....and you both hit it off well. Gabe enjoyed sitting and watching you do all the things you had to do in the gym. That got him to TRY to sit up more on his own and hold onto ropes to hold himself up...etc. All clever ways they use to get kids like you and Gabe, to do the things you need to do to strengthen your bodies over time.

SO here is to today! Hope we get a lot accomplished!

I LOVE YOU!

Mommy

Sunday, November 27, 2005

Dear Noah:

So your daddy had been on vacation for an entire week before Thanksgiving. The first day he had to go back you told me this (while crying):

"I need a new daddy!" I asked "what?" and you explained "I need a new daddy so he can stay home with me all the time and not go to work!" "I NEED my daddy".

On and on.....kind of funny but odd at the same time. But you did not let up. I explained how daddy had to go to work to make money to feed you and clothe you and provide you with a place to live, etc. You calmed down some and then started telling your daddy "you need to come home early so we can play". "You need to come home by 8:00".

So daddy made a deal with you and indeed did come home early. NOT 8:00 early but earlier than normal. YOU my little man stayed awake in bed TILL he showed up....then got up and you two apparently played (while I slept) and had milk.

You are too sweet for words.

I love you.....mommy

Saturday, November 26, 2005

Friday, November 25, 2005

Noah's Thanksgiving Night





Noah did not want to eat Thanksgiving dinner with us but I finally coaxed him into coming out to the table. Course he did NOT eat any turkey...I had to make him some chicken wings and French fries.

Later that night he became obssessed with REWINDING our videotapes. ALL of them. He spent several hours pulling them out, popping them into the VCR and rewinding them...and then putting them all back. Here are a couple clips of how excited he got doing this. Quality is poor because of poor lighting...it was dark outside and I had low lighting on inside. AND........IGNORE the mess in the living room...we are organizing and sorting things to take to a storage locker still!

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

Shopping Mall Santa Nightmare!

So........we decided to take a trip to a different shopping mall today. They supposedly had a wonderful Christmas display set up this year. Giant snowglobes with scenes from the movie The Chronicals of Narnia" and a Giant Wardrobe..etc. Course Santa would be in the middle of it all! We had planned this trip for a week....telling you how you would be able to play in their fabulous play area. We talked more about the trip last night. You informed me that you had NO desire to see Santa or sit on his lap or to talk to him or have him see you let alone have your picture taken with him!

I said that was fine...you did NOT have to have your picture taken with him.

So we get to the mall. I stopped at a Carlton Card store and got a few things while Daddy took you to the restroom. You came back and I could tell you had been crying hard. I asked what happened. Apparently the mall had decided to CLOSE the play area....for refurbishing. SO...that took care of that play time. ...and that was the main reason for the trip as you did not have occupational therapy today as they are closed for the holiday.

So we decided to check out the Christmas display which while nice...was not quite what we had expected. A bit disappointed we walked toward it...and you started to cry again! HARD...telling us you did NOT want to SEE Santa or have him SEE you! So we barely made it around the display without having you stuck to us like a leech (sp?) and your head shoved under our arms so no one could see you including Mr. Santa! You said you were going to WRITE him a list of what you wanted.

So...we decided to try our local mall as they have an area you could run around in. However...this meant walking by yet another Santa. You started the crying thing all over again....saying how you did NOT want to SEE Santa or have him SEE you. We had to basically be human blinders just to get you to walk by the AREA he was in. Finally made it. Down at the play area you did a lot of body slamming into walls or rolling on the floor. Slamming your head forward and backwards.......I did manage to take a video clip of it from a distance but not sure how well it turned out. I missed some parts of it.

Anyway.....this time of year for the past 3 years at least seems to be very difficult and trying for you. You are an emotional time bomb just waiting for someone to look at you wrong or mention something wrong to set you off! You make some progress and then are in a holding pattern for awhile again or even regress.....perhaps because your brain is learning all these new things and it has to reprogram itself all the time? I imagine that in itself can be exhausting and tiring. BUT....you have consistently had a very difficult time this time of year every year for at least the past 3 years in a row. I know our routines are a bit different. I know you probably get overloaded a lot by all the extra stimuli.

Anyway......this got me to thinking about whether or not someday you could handle driving. Sure you are the BEST driver on a race car game on a computer. You KNOW EXACTLY where we are going...all the maps...routes....highways....SPEED LIMITS on every road we ever take.....intersections....landmarks...etc.....and are superb at it...HOWEVER....I wonder if you could ever handle the stress that could be involved when driving and having to intermingle with other cars and drivers? I am thinking you might not be able to handle that....but maybe one day you could. What do you do if you can't? Take a bus? I doubt you would love that too much but then again maybe you would really like it a lot!? I used to take a bus. It is okay.....but maybe you would be okay at driving. Course in my MOMMY mind you never driving sounds mighty appealing....but then again it means you would be dependent on someone else all the time to get around or another means to get around...not so good.

BUT I am thinking about something way out in the future. I love you my Noah Wesley!

Mommy
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Tuesday, November 22, 2005

Dear Noah:

Well we went to speech therapy today. You did pretty well. Stopped at the Burger King right beside the speech therapy office for lunch on the way back home. You did well....was playing in their small play area. No one was there but us. For quite some time. Suddenly the place began to fill up. Kids came in...Some were really ROWDY kids. Like pushing and shoving each other over type kids. A kid with a toy gun (which we do NOT let you play with)...things like that. We promptly called you back OUT of the play area when those kids came in...as I knew you would not handle that well. AND sure enough....just the pulling you out prompted you to have a crying fit. On and on, over and over you kept telling me you needed to go to another play area....there were too many kids at this play area.....about 100 times in 5 minutes. ...crying all the while. We finally got you calmed down from that with knowledge that we were headed to the grocery store where you could push around a shopping cart to your heart's content. Well...you pushed it but also shook it around...pushed and shook it.....crashing into things. Not a good idea today I guess.

SO..I decided to let you have a VACATION from school this week. With everything going on and you having a semi-harder time than usual lately, I figured maybe you could use a break.

This morning you came out. I had a blue waffle material type jacket on as I was a bit chilly. You said "oh look at all those little squares" and promptly started rubbing them and putting your nose all over them and rubbing your nose back and forth all over the bumpy little squares cooing and aahing the entire time. So excited...loving it....then started giving me little kisses in each of the little squares. Too precious for words.

I love you!

Mommy

Noah rolling around on the grass outside

Monday, November 21, 2005

Dear Noah:

How Great....Is Our God.....
Sing With Me How Great.....is Our God
And All the World Will Sing
How Great...Is Our God


Jesus is the way to your heart

These are the songs I heard you singing last night before you went to bed. Talk about a take-your-breath-away moment. So precious indeed!

Sunday, November 20, 2005

Dear Noah:

I came across this picture Noah....and think it is probably how YOU feel about GOD being in your heart.

You are so sweet...and I love you so much!

Mommy
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Dear Noah:



So tonight you came running into your bedroom. You grabbed at your heart. We thought you were going to say something about how your heart was beating so fast. Instead you told Daddy, "oh wait"......(while holding onto your heart)....and then "I thought God wasn't there....but I was wrong...He is right there in my heart."

Which got me to thinking. Do you suppose you somehow think of God actually BEING IN your heart? OR do you think your heart and its beating IS GOD? I know you have always been adamant about how GOD was IN YOU and you used to even say YOU were GOD....when we think you meant you wanted to be like God? Our pastor once told you that GOD was IN your heart. SO I am curious...but am thinking perhaps you associate your beating heart with GOD then. SO I guess your heart was beating funny again tonight or perhaps skipped a beat or two and you were "afraid" GOD was no longer there? BUT you then (after feeling it beating) said you were wrong and GOD was IN YOUR HEART!

ALL I can say is you understand WAY more than many adults do in regards to God and religious things. It amazes me. I am prayerful you will carry that into your adulthood.

I LOVE YOU!

Mommy
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Friday, November 18, 2005



Noah filmed this himself....talking about something he wanted me to do on his computer...not exactly sure...it involved a game..but the end is so cute...he tells me he loves me!
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Noah Lost His First Tooth!

Yep..finally! You had 2 loose bottom teeth but 2 already coming in behind them. We were worried you might not lose the bottom front teeth without some kind of problem...but then they got looser...and yesterday we were getting ready to leave the house and go to the library and you kind of winced and said "my tooth is really loose" and headed to the bathroom. Now I had been told by our occupational therapist that she had another autistic child whose parents also thought the same as us...but their child ended up pulling their loose teeth out! I had kind of felt you COULD end up being that way...and end up NOT being afraid to pull your own teeth out..which I was secretly HOPING would be the case as I did not want to have to pull them or take you to the dentist for any procedures. After a second or two you came out of the bathroom saying "okay...my tooth is out now" like you were all ready to go. I looked and it was gone and your mouth had blood inside it. I asked you where the tooth was and you said on the floor in the bathroom. Sure enough there it was! I immediately praised and praised you, trying to distract attention from the growing pool of blood in your mouth for fear you would freak out and have a bad association with the entire experience which would make future episodes even worse. I also wanted to keep the blood IN your mouth and not on your coat or shirt which I knew MIGHT freak you out. SO back to the bathroom we went where no matter what I said you would not rinse or spit...which was okay as you did not see the blood this way. Instead I took you back to the kitchen and got your bottle of ice water and had you take sips of that.....telling you to rinse and just swallow it...that it was okay to swallow your blood and that it what blood tasted like and this was all normal, etc. You did so well and mommy and daddy were so PROUD of you and so relieved the tooth came out. You turned it in to the tooth fairy last night hoping to get a GOLD COIN...sure enough this morning you had a GOLD DOLLAR coin! You were excited to see that! Now the second bottom front tooth is getting looser..so we will probably do the entire routine again soon. I AM JUST SO THANKFUL you can PULL your own teeth without a hitch! You are unique. What tends to bother most usually does not bother you...on the other hand what normally does not bother most...usually WILL bother you.

I LOVE YOU MY LITTLE TOOTHLESS MAN and am SO PROUD OF YOU!

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Wednesday, November 16, 2005


Noah playing his piano

Dear Noah

You are such a sweetie pie! We were shopping yesterday in a store and you said "Let's walk down the Hallmark section" and we did. You said you wanted to get a card to send to Grandma Lincoln. So you said "oh here is one where you write your own message!" and you grabbed it. You then said "well I need to get one for Grandpa Lincoln too!" so you did. Then of course you could not forget Grandma Custer.

So..you have some writing assignments coming up as you picked 3 cards where you write your own message to send to them all. I also told you that you needed to work on some Thanksgiving cards!

Doing great in speech therapy!!! You have been a bit hyper-wound something or other lately!

I love you my little man...and you "took a catnap" again in your own bed last night.

OH...update on the lower teeth....both new ones coming in behind the front teeth on the bottom....but...the BOTTOM LOWER TEETH ARE INDEED VERY LOOSE now so I imagine they will fall out soon enough. You are a bit excited about that. Said you will be a man soon. Also are excited about what the tooth fairy might bring you!

Mommy (HUGS AND KISSES!!)

You are too cute Noah. Yesterday driving around doing errands you saw this and said "hey...they are making clouds!" So cute. I think you have said this before...and yes..in reality I guess they are making clouds as that is all steam and then clouds developed above them! Posted by Picasa

Sunday, November 13, 2005

Dinosaur Ridge

Dear Noah:

Well you just wanted to take a SUNDAY CRUISE today after church and dinner at a restaurant..so we drove around. Ended up in the foothills at Dinosaur Ridge. Was a bit chilly up there and we did not have winter coats so we did not stay too long. Since we have started to study rocks and minerals in school we picked up a few. You however were NOT in the mood to be shopping or checking things out INSIDE a store. You wanted to head back to the car and KEEP MOVING!!

I took a couple of short video clips of the area but they are not showing the color very well for some reason. We saw many dinosaur tracks..and they even had dinosaur teeth and other bones for sale. Many things....it was pretty interesting!

You enjoyed yourself. You kept wanting to drive and then said you wanted to DRIVE ALL THE WAY TO NEW MEXICO! hahaha. Not exactly sure where that idea came from. When I asked you...you said "from my mind". BUT we drove around for a couple of hours.....had a nice time...stopped a few places...back home now. You are a bit calmed down but also wired at the same time.

Your two bottom teeth seem to be moving a bit to allow those new teeth coming in more room perhaps? Not sure...we are still praying and hoping SO!

Here is a clip of you digging for bones at Dinosaur Ridge....that I will have to post later as the video place is not working right!

Thursday, November 10, 2005

A little better



Here he was answering questions fairly well but was not speaking as clearly as he can and was not really showing as much as he really knows about things.

More


He had a very hard time sitting or standing and got super excited and a bit wild when trying to answer some questions he knows the answers to but kept saying he did not know. Spinning around...scoping...more sounds.

Noah and a trying school day



Noah had a semi-trying school day today. Hard time concentrating...lots of noise and movement. Just wanted to make noise and move and kept saying "I don't know" when he DOES know answers to things. Here are a few samples

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

Dear Noah

So this morning I noticed new front lower teeth coming in BEHIND your baby front lower teeth. We can only hope and pray your baby teeth come out and soon and make room for the permanent. I cannot imagine what it might be like to try to get you to see a dentist let alone have to have something major done. They would have to sedate you and sedate you just to sedate you....and I don't know how they can even do that! AND then they would have to keep you sedated probably as your mouth would hurt and you would be screaming and crying probably afterwards. Well maybe not.

We have been praying all along we could avoid taking you to a dentist until you were older and maybe could understand things better and handle things better. Like 9-10 years old. Your teeth have looked very good up till now and you have had no problems. I have noticed lately however they look funny. A bit see-through. Then today I noticed the double tooth. I have researched it and have found out it is nothing to worry about now. Not anything emergent. BUT.......if the baby teeth don't come out soon...then it could be a problem.

Please Dear Lord let Noah lose his teeth normally so his permanent teeth can come in okay and be okay and healthy and strong and let him handle it all well. IF he has to have some type of procedure done please allow us to find and EASY way to sedate him and prepare the way to have it all done. Something easy on him and his mouth. It is bad enough pulling teeth in little kids who have no issues. But autism and sensory integration and anxiety issues? OH my.

Thank you Lord in advance for hearing and answering my prayer!



Noah still recording himself calling out to his daddy to come play with him but MUCH softer as his daddy got tired of hearing it! hahaha

Noah recording himself....an oldie but goodie



Noah was recording himself calling out to his Daddy to come play with him. I have posted this before but came across it again and just think it is so funny.

Noah singing and videorecording


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I came across this pumpkin patch pic and saw you again standing there with your hands over your ears as sounds of cars driving up the dirt road really bothered you! Posted by Picasa

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