Sunday, September 21, 2014

Dear Noah......you could not go back to sleep after dreaming about elevators....








I woke up this morning off and on like I always do...for some reason woke up again about the time I normally would for work...around 3:30 a.m.....and I looked across the room and saw something...looked like white glowing legs....on the bottom near the floor but dark on top. Hum....I thought, "Should I open my eyes further and look better to see what MIGHT be there?" My mind still had not totally decided that was a good idea, but my eyes did not hesitate and they looked up...up my eyes went and tried to focus...and then I realized Noah was standing there leaning against the wall. I asked him how long he had been standing there. He said, "A half hour." I said, "A half hour? WHY? Why did you not say anything to me and just stand there? Why did you not even try to wake me up?"

Noah has done this off and on since he was very little. I know it has a lot to do with his autism and just not really either knowing what to do in that situation or not knowing how to "explain" it to me.....(and now I think he is afraid he will wake me up) so he will often just come to the side of my bed or wherever I am sleeping and just "stand there." No words...just stands there. He told me he had actually been out in the kitchen before standing there in the living room beside me sleeping on the sofa.

I guess he was having a very hard time sleeping. It sounds like he had a dream where he was going up and down in elevators and checking elevators out (which he LOVES) and his arms and legs were MOVING and it woke him up. Once awake...his mind obsessed on the elevators and he could not put those thoughts away for the night so he could sleep. ALSO a very common issue for people with autism....and many other people as well. Noah used to basically not sleep much at all....could not get his mind to be "quiet" so he could "sleep." I worked with him on many methods to get around this including but not limited to (lol), telling yourself it was "okay" to put all those thoughts away for the night in an imaginary box beside your bed where the next day you could open the box and take all those same thoughts BACK OUT and begin thinking about them again, but that your "mind" needed some quiet time to sleep and rest. This actually worked for him. He said now he can usually "quiet" his mind and free it up from thoughts so he can go to sleep...but after the elevator dream he could not. I guess he did not know what to do. So he came out and "stood."

He said he calls nights like this when he cannot sleep "hotel nights" ...because when we used to go to hotels during our travels back and forth from Colorado to Ohio on vacations we would spend time in hotels (which he loves doing to this day) and he was always so excited he would usually NOT be able to sleep and would get up and look out the hotel window off and on all night...and finally, eventually be able to go back to sleep. I guess there are times now when he will wake up in his bedroom....look out the window a few times...and finally he can fall asleep on his own.

The other night he got up...and I swore he was up...I was working...I called out to him...he never responded. I finally got up (within seconds) and went to check to see if he was up. I did not see him anywhere. I opened his bedroom door and he was sound asleep. I later found out that day he HAD gotten up...but somehow had gone to the bathroom and got back into bed and back to sleep before I got out of my chair and checked on him? This was like all less than a minute and a half. HE DID hear me call out to him but he never responded.

Anyway.....last night he brought his afghan out to the love seat and folded his long legs and body into a position to try to sleep out there beside me. We talked for a bit. He finally sounded like he was getting tired...and next thing I know he was once again sound asleep.

I cherish moments like these though. Even though I was going to lose some sleep on my one morning I could sleep in.....I was soaking it all up and trying to embed it in my brain as another memory.

One day I know our roles might be reversed...and I just hope he has as much patience and love for me during any difficult times I might have....as I try to always give him..haha..not sure he will....but he would probably HIRE someone else to "tend" to me that might hee hee.

While Noah has made huge strides over his lifetime so far..I know many areas he will need to work on...and that most still revolve around expressive language and learning to use his words to express easily what he is thinking or how he is feeling or what he needs or just what is going on in certain situations. This has never come easily to him and still does not. Sometimes he just does not talk at all because he says it is too hard for him to express what he is thinking. I know it can take him a long time to get something out verbally.

Anyway.....those 2 little white glowing legs were his......and I can say I am certainly thankful they were!

Monday, September 01, 2014

Dear Noah.......school is right around the corner!

I can't believe the summer is basically over and today it is Labor Day already! You will turn 16 years old in December. I can't believe that either! You could be driving a car now..but have decided you would rather wait until you are at least 16...can't believe that as well!

Where has the time gone? I have told you many times life is a series of blinks...the year goes by in blinks. Well...reaching Labor Day was a blink...and we  have a few basic blinks now till the end of this year!

Blink...and it will be fall....Blink and it will be Halloween...Blink...Thanksgiving...Blink...Christmas and your birthday...

Blink...another new year.

If you go by the major holidays or season changes as the basic blinks of life....there are only 12 or 13 on average per year. AND THEY GO BY SO QUICKLY!

So....guess what? BLINK....school will be starting up again....ready or not here we come!

I love you....my little man who is growing up and sometimes a grumpy little typical teenage man....who probably thinks his mama is not very smart and he knows everything...

but I still love you....oh where or where has my little man gone? (I know you are still in there somewhere!)

XOXOXOX

Tuesday, August 12, 2014

Dear Noah....you will be starting your sophomore year soon!

AND it is so hard to believe. Seems like only  yesterday you were sitting on the swing with grandpa L. and your cousin Audrey.

This December you will become 16 years old.

I guess your mama better get it together and quick! You are actually able to start driving with a learner's permit now...but have decided you would rather wait until you are at least 16  years old. I think that is a good idea lol.

I love you my little man..who is slowly yet quickly transforming into a young adult.

Mom
XOXOXOX

Sunday, April 27, 2014

Dear Noah....a gorgeous Saturday and A&W Root Beer

 We had a nice visit from grandma C and uncle Mike Saturday morning....after they left we got some lunch and took it to the park to eat. It was a gorgeous day weather-wise. Nice and sunny...only about 71 degrees outside. We then decided to drive to Union City, Indiana and go get a root beer at the A&W Root Beer stand.

LOVELY day for a drive. You love their root beer. I tried to get you to

smile..but as you can see you nearly spit it out as you took a big swig and then I said SMILE right afterwards. ANYWAY...we enjoyed the day. Next up was railfanning...watching a couple of long trains that came through Union City and then you taking pics of RR crossings. Back home and a nice evening there too.

I love you my little mustache man.

Mom
XOXOXOX

Sunday, April 20, 2014

Happy Easter!

 When Noah was little, he did not enjoy coloring Easter eggs all that much...and most often when his aunties and I would get together to color the eggs (as we still enjoy doing it)..he would opt out. I think it had a lot to do with getting messy dye on his fingers.

Well this year he started out early asking if we were going to color Easter eggs this year. I finally told him we could..if he would actually do it.

SO I boiled a dozen eggs...and put 2 in that were brown shells just to see how
 they might look colored. They turned out more Army green and brown. BUT..here he is...and enjoying coloring the eggs. One broke after boiling so I ate that one. I decided to let him color all 11 eggs himself...oh...I guess I did end up coloring one to show him how it was done as he could not really remember. He did the other 10. He seemed to really enjoy it and did not mind all that much that some dye got on his fingers. Here are his finished results.
Happy Easter everyone!

Monday, February 24, 2014

Dear Noah...you are becoming a young man now...

This is how you come out most every morning now to greet me. You are wearing your 4th Doctor Who scarf you got for Christmas. You love it and I guess you want to make sure you get to wear it other than just outside in cold weather with your winter coat..so you have taken to wearing it in the house upon arising with your PJs's still on and even sitting in your room.

I look at you now and see how you and even your body is changing and you are turning into a young man before my eyes. I cannot believe you are already 15 years old and growing up so fast. It seems only yesterday you were a little toddler.

I love you my little man, well, my young man, and I will forever and ever!

Mom XOXOX