Monday, March 13, 2017

Dear Noah.......practicing for the manueverability test.......UPDATE - driving test canceled due to ICE

UPDATE: was sleeting and giving us an icy covering the morning you were to take your test so I canceled it and rescheduled it. I know you were disappointed and I felt bad but figure it is better safe than sorry. I hope and pray every day you will do well come test day and pass that maneuverability test.

I cannot believe the last time I posted was clear back in January! What a difference home schooling and now you doing college online makes compared to all the issues when you were younger or in the public school setting. Of course getting older and learning how to adjust to difficult situations in your life have all been very helpful and you are doing very well in college now by yourself! I rarely  have to check in with you and you are getting A's and B's! I have no doubt you will become successful at whatever you decided to pursue in your lifetime.

I am very proud of you.

This week you take your driving test to get your permanent driver's I rigged up some cones so you could practice for the maneuverability test....back in my day it was parallel parking. I forgot to take pics last night of you working your way through the cones but maybe I can next time. You are doing very well though and I think you will be just fine come testing day. Just keep your head on your shoulders, pay attention and remain calm and move slowly during the parking portion of the test.

I love you so much Noah. You are the biggest portion of my life and have been for so many years. I am sort of glad this transition to your independence is moving at a pace I can adjust I can prepare myself for when you will be fully out on your own one day, because that will be a BIGGER adjustment I think for me than you.

TO the MOON and back again Noah Wesley....forever and ever and every.....I will always love you to infinity and beyond.


Sunday, January 15, 2017

Dear are now 18 years old...........when did that happen?

Wow..cannot believe it has been like over a month since I posted any updates. I know things are going pretty well when I don't post that much OR things are going too rough and personal and I don't share. Let's just say a lot has been happening in the past couple of months. You have finished your first semester of college courses and got an A in the Customer Service/marketing class and a B in the Business Management did VERY well and I am very proud of you and I believe this has boosted your confidence level which you definitely needed! You will start your next 2 classes next week.......English composition (to prepare you for Business Communications) and a marketing class..forget now off the top of my head what it is called. I think you will do well......but time will tell. 

You have dealt with some personal issues which I will not go into they are personal.....and you have not always made the best choices or handled them the best but you are learning. I do try to always understand you and help you through trying times but it seems I was not even aware of some of your trying times because you did not let me know. When I found out you held a knife to your throat and wanted to die during this personal time I was so devastated.......but so thankful it was mostly just a threat to someone and not something you really would want to do. However, your more immature responses to times of personal crises reminds me of the fact that while young....and young people can be super dramatic at are still more emotionally behind than your peers at the same age as you. I do not have a problem with that as I know from the past you will catch up......but I know it makes it harder for you to be ready to take those first steps out into the real world. I am trying all I can to prepare you....but it takes time and you move at a slower pace in this regard than others your age. NOT all...just some. In a way that is kind of normal probably for kids your age. 

We did have a small birthday celebration at your grandma and grandpa's house after Christmas since everyone was there..or just about we always do to make it convenient for everyone not to have to get together again over the holiday rush.....but you have always wanted to have a party at CiCi's Pizza ....and with the holidays and some not feeling well and work schedule conflicts I figured once again we would not be able to do this....but your aunt Angela arranged a SURPRISE birthday party for you at ...yes...CiCi's Pizza!

When I got you over there you had no idea and when you walked in and saw everyone and realized your wish of over 2 years was finally coming teared up.....but you were so happy. I DID cry the semi-ugly cry lol..but tried to keep it together. We had a great time there and good food and playing arcade games. Big shout out thank you again to my sister Angela and everyone else who came along to celebrate Noah's 18th birthday! 

I still can't believe you are now 18 years old. While there are a lot of "firsts" in your life and my life with you recently...there are also some "lasts" and things coming to an homeschooling. I have loved every minute of that and really never wanted to relinquish my duties in that regard even as you had to become more independent with your studies. I had a very hard time with that and still have kept most of my old school stuff I used to teach you with. I did donate a large box of items to Goodwill....which about tore me up.....but I did it. I have to remember sometimes it is okay to let go of the material thing as I still have the memories and photos. 

In another month or so you will get your permanent driver's license. Another big first was the fact that we had to register you for the selective service/draft. Life goes on and there will always be changes coming our way........and I am so thankful you were born and have shared your life and time with me. 

I love you to the moon and back again my little man.....though you are all grown up now! Love you! Mom XOXOXOX

Sunday, October 16, 2016

Dear Noah........

Wow I can tell since I have started homeschooling you and now you are a senior and actually doing college courses this year.....that the stress and problems you used to face have definitely improved or totally resolved. Homeschooling was one of the very BEST decisions I have ever made for you and would do it all over again in a heartbeat! I can tell things are much better just from the drop in postings I have made here on Blogger. However, I should also report in I guess on all the progress and GOOD things over the years. Your life is so much better and your world is so much easier to cope and live in. I am so thankful for all.

As you are also older I do choose to keep a lot of things more private now.......for obvious reasons.

You are doing very well so far with the college courses...making the transition slowly but surely. I cannot believe October is already half over.

We have adjusted to living in an apartment instead of a house...and continue to slowly get more settled now that we have decided for sure we will be staying put. We are excited about the upcoming holidays in our new place and decorating and enjoying it this year. We moved in last year the week of Christmas which I would never advise anyone to ever do if you can possibly avoid it!

Otherwise, all is well with you and us and home. Love you so much Noah and I am very proud of all you have accomplished so far in your life. I only wish the best for you always.

Love you!

(Memories from your past)


Sunday, August 28, 2016

Dear begin college courses on Monday, August 29......

and I find myself sitting here wondering where soon to be 18 years have gone. Has it really been almost 18 YEARS? Does not seem possible. I look back at photos of you when you were very young.....and then a little older....and see you every day as you are now. Hard to believe that little boy is still in there and part of you now.

I love you and hope and pray you do very well and succeed at all you dream of!


Wednesday, July 13, 2016

Dear have taken over the wheel.........

and for the life of me I cannot remember the last time I drove my own car! You are doing really well though and I love you and am proud of you....but I will have to drive occasionally so I can make sure I do not forget any of my skills! haha

Now I can certainly see more and look around more with you driving and of course even take this one of the clouds that were ahead of us with an approaching storm! We ended up driving right through it all....and you had said you wanted practice driving in the rain...well you certainly got to experience that now a few times.

College courses start soon...and I am still wondering where all these years went??

I love you!


Thursday, June 30, 2016

Dear will be starting college courses soon........

And I still cannot believe it.

I love you my little man.