Saturday, July 18, 2015

Dear Noah.........I keep wondering where my little man has gone

I know you are in there somewhere still.......hard to believe in December you will turn 17 years old!

I love you , to the moon and back again, and again and again and again, to infinity and beyond, forever and ever and ever.

Mom
XOXOXOX

Thursday, June 18, 2015

Dear Noah.......SCHOOL is out for summer!

Well...I am happy to say you successfully completed another year. We have a few things planned for summer.......but you did a great job and I look forward to next year of school with you! You will basically be done with your required subjects at the end of next year to graduate....so we may do your senior year with post-secondary or college courses. We will see......maybe we will do a more specialized study of sorts.

I love you!

Mom
XOXOXOX

Sunday, May 31, 2015

Dear Noah........hard to believe it has been 9 years since we moved back to Ohio


It still seems like last week and not 9 years ago. This is also the weekend 9 years ago we moved out from my grandma's house (your great-grandmother) to move into this house we currently live in. Grandma was the only one who offered us a place to stay when we moved here from Colorado....until we could get a place of our own. We came back in February and it took almost 4 months to finally find a place, and unfortunately during that time...I caught a lot of crap from family via phone calls and emails about us needing to move out and finding a place of our own to live in and move out away from grandma's house. Like what.....we were not trying? You kept all the house floor plans and real estate print outs of the houses we looked at to buy...there are hundreds! Some days we would look at 10 to 15 at a time. I finally gave up on "buying" a house and decided just to find something to "rent" as I was still getting phone calls from my mom and uncle and cousin and whoever telling me how we needed to move out. You were still having more issues back then than you do now and they were afraid you would trip grandma or who knows what.

Grandma gave us a room upstairs and we pretty much tried to always stay up there and not disrupt grandma's routines or life as much as possible. Grandma never complained. She was not telling us we needed to move out yet...but everyone else was. Funny....I don't think anyone emailed my uncle or called him up and gave him crap like they did me after he moved in with grandma and ended up staying there for 4 years and causing her lots of grief in the process. BUT whatever. Maybe everyone has learned something from all this. I know grandma was a very loving and compassionate person and always loved you more than she could say. She always sent you a card, which she did not always do so to her other great-grandkids and she would make a point to tell us not to tell anyone else about it lol.....and she always stuck money in the card for you. She called you "my little Noah"......and loved you dearly.

I am now apparently off on a tangent....was just originally thinking about how this is the weekend 9 years ago we finally moved out from grandma's house (one room upstairs that she had fixed up for us) and moved into this house. It is also the weekend we got ready for grandma's funeral 1 year ago after she died following a horrific accident that she was in, with that same uncle from above driving her car. He failed to stop at a stop sign at a busy intersection and pulled out and an oncoming car hit grandma's car on the passenger side where she was sitting. She suffered a broken neck, head injuries, broken rib, etc. My uncle was basically fine. The other people were thankfully also okay. Grandma though died 2 days later from her injuries. She would most likely still be alive and going strong if that had not happened as she was very healthy and still living independently at 91 years of age. She would often in the middle of a conversation look at me and ask, "Just how long do you think I am going to live?" lol....she, I think, was worried about her eyesight as she had lost sight in the 1 eye already...and she did not hear the best anymore...and she was worried about slowly losing the use of her legs.....she had neuropathy and could not always feel her feet...so had to finally stop driving.

You already know all this though Noah....as we would go visit with grandma at least once a week. You heard us talk during our conversations. You also worked word puzzles with grandma and showed her floor plans in your house books. I am sure she was bored out of her mind but she never let you know that. So this is a mixed weekend for me. You are now 16 years old....16-1/2...we just wrapped up school.....and I came across this photo and realized how much older you now are.....how much time has passed since this photo was taken at grandma's house while we were living there or maybe shortly after we moved out.......and then all that has happened in that time but especially even this past year.

 Today is a rainy day.....and I have a lot I can do here in the house and outside even.....but I am not sure how much I will accomplish. Sometimes it is good to just take some down time to reflect.

I love you my little man. You have grown up so much since this photo was taken.

Mom
XOXOX

Friday, May 08, 2015

Dear Noah.........wrapping up the school year

We are moving along. Hard to believe the end of the school year is right around the corner. Didn't January just start? It is already May 8th!

We went to see Paddington at the theater in Englewood and last weekend saw Avengers movie Age of Ultron...at the DRIVE-IN! It was really good..they both were actually. Nothing  like the drive-in though. Still love to go and thankful we have one to go to!

Love you lots!

Mom

XOXOX

Monday, April 13, 2015

Dear Noah....train stopped during railfanning....

(you can click the title right above this to see the video) You and I went railfanning in Tipp City, Ohio yesterday and one of the longer Northbound CSX trains had to stop and wait on the tracks for a Northbound CSX train to get off the tracks so they could continue on. As you can see from the photo above, you took advantage of that opportunity to actually get out and TOUCH the train lol. You were thrilled. We were only there a couple of hours at most and saw 3 very long  CSX trains.

I love you!

Mom
XOXOXO


Sunday, March 29, 2015

Dear Noah.......where has my little boy gone?


so.....you are growing up so very fast. Seems like only yesterday you were that little boy in the above photo from 2007 with your grandpa. Fast forward 8 years.....you are now 16-1/2 years old........and well on your way to becoming a young adult man.

It seems to have gone by way too quickly......

I love you my little man...

Mom
XOXOXO

Saturday, March 28, 2015

Dear Noah........you still have to have some things a specific way.......always

It is funny...no matter what gets placed on your bed......even if I stack everything in one pile....you have to line everything up.....and put specific things in specific areas. That mini Frisbee has been on your bed like a year or two? I move it...even suggest putting it on a shelf. You want it on the bed..so I put it on the bed...but you MOVE it to the EXACT location shown above.

I can stack the books and papers and folders in 1 stack.....you take each one and lay them out in a single-file lineup.  Your Doctor Who scarf is always up by your pillow. I never actually paid attention to the specific locations until the other day......so I snapped this photo......and when we have changed your bedding the last few times..I watch where you put things on the bed...especially changing things if I put it all in 1 stack. It ends up like this. 

I asked you why you did it...and I am not sure you really gave me an answer.  I just asked you again...and you said you really don't know. I do know it is a pretty common trait with anyone with autism.....and you have lined things up since you were little.

Anyway........as you can see..Opie always finds a place to lay on your bed.

I love you Noah Wesley. I know you don't feel really well right now with some cold or allergies...you have a very runny nose, have been sneezing and coughing....I hope and pray you feel better soon!

Mom
XOXOXOX