Dear Noah...

We decided to go see grandma C. tonight and take her a homemade supper and then stay and visit. During the drive there I had a CD on and a song came on and you spoke up and said "I am really starting to like this song a lot now!" ....and I asked you what there was about the song that you liked. The song was still playing and got to the chorus.....and you said "here this part.....I like this part."

The words said:

Here I am far away
hundred miles and oceans from you
feel the need to cry out loud
I want you to know

oh, you're all I care for
oh, you're all I care for
oh, you're all I care for
you're all I need

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I asked you what it reminded you of or made you think about. You said "daddy and being away from him." I asked you how that made you feel....you said "sometimes sad......sometimes happy.....what is the word for a little bit of both?" I said "melancholy?" .....and you seemed happy to know this.

Needless to say it made me also feel sad and happy. Happy to know you understand words now so well and they are really starting to mean things to you. Sad because I also realize you probably have more crap going on in your head than any of us around you ever know.....and I am sure this only scratched the surface. You are very very deep and we can forget that as it is so easily disguised in an 8-year-old little boy's body. But your mind is mature beyond its years in understanding love and the things important in life.

This is a song by the group Gotthard.......and the entire lyrics are listed below.

CLICK HERE TO LISTEN TO THE SONG as you read along All I Care For

Another day before us
and we're ready for the show
across the land of mystery
everyone with their own dream
sometimes harder than they seem

Here I am far away
hundred miles and oceans from you
feel the need to cry out loud
I want you to know

oh, you're all I care for
oh, you're all I care for
you're all I need

Soon I will be back again
I know, it's hard to love a kind of man
always on the line
always out of time
just one thing I know for sure

Here I am far away
hundred miles and oceans from you
feel the need to cry out loud
I want you to know

oh, you're all I care for
oh, you're all I care for
oh, you're all I care for
you're all I need

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I love you very much Noah......you are such a precious little boy.

Mommy XOXOXOX